You Want To Hear God Laugh?

Tell Him your plans.  I had organizational plans in the works - my sister was helping me straighten out my brain.  That went out the window...at least for now.

For the most part, everything is good.  The one exception:

I've been frantically working to get my Virtual Assistant business up and running, but that was waylaid by some financial issues.  The economy has taken its toll on me, that's for sure.  Long story short - my brother used my credit and his income to buy a house.  I should have listened to the folks that warned me about it, but I didn't and am paying the price.  The house is in foreclosure.  I'm petrified that this will affect the house I live in now, so I am working with a real estate attorney.  Please send all your good thoughts my way.

Now for the GOOD:

My little man was 4 months old on the 20th.  He now weighs 16 pounds and is 26 1/2" long.  I am so grateful that he is happy, healthy, and thriving. 

I turned 41 on the 22nd.  Happy Birthday to me!  We didn't do anything spectacular, but it was lovely nonetheless.  My fiance made Beef Milanese, I made a yummy salad and we enjoyed a low-key evening at home.  What a man!

We are adopting my fiance's newborn grandson.  His daughter isn't in a position to raise him, so we are going to.  Joseph Peter was born on 10/26/08 and he's been with us since.  What a sweet angel...and Bobby is enthralled by him!  It is really cute - he stares at him, babbles a bit and then wants to touch.  We have to be careful with that, though.  Bobby is so much bigger!

Part of me is scared - can I raise two infants 4 months apart without losing my last remaining marble?  I hope I do a good job - these boys need me and I won't let them down.  I just keep thinking - What would my mother do?

The other part of me is elated - these 2 boys will be the best of friends - they'll fight, but they will most definitely look out for each other.

It is hectic, crazy, sleep-deprived and overwhelming at times, but oh so worth it.

I finally have everything that I want or need. 

xoxo

Crazy Mama

Today is one of those days.  I feel just a tad bit loopy.

I have read articles on a boat load of websites and in magazines about organization, motherhood, writing, creativity, cooking, etc. and so forth. 

Oprah, Martha, Rachel Ray, Parenting, Family Circle, Woman's Day...

My house is still a sty. I am still obscenely unorganized.  Oh yeah,  I still have writer's block...which has been my constant companion since 2003, when I graduated from college with a degree in English Literature and finally determined that I LOVED writing. 

Since that revelation, all the creative muses have taken a hike.  I do have faith that I'll get it back again, once I set aside some time to focus.

For now, it is all about my son. He is thriving...he's happy and healthy, "talks" up a storm and LOVES his Baby Einstein mat.

Now that I think about it, taking care of him is really all I need right now.

Hello, my name is Julie.  I'm a disorganized, loopy, crazy mama.

Pleased to meet you.

xoxo

Happy Birthday!

I can't believe it...my little man was 3 months old yesterday!   Where has the time gone?

My body still bears the signs of pregnancy - some stretch marks on my belly, sore joints, fingers are still a bit swollen - but all of that is slowly dissipating.  I'm working on the extra weight - it is coming off steadily.

The more I think about it, the more I realize that I will deal with all of this gladly because of my son.  My body produced this amazing child who is now 25 inches and 13 1/2 pounds.

Yes, the boy hates Tummy Time like I hate exercise.  But both must be done! :)  He can hold his head up while lying on his tummy...and he even scoots around in a circle.  He is fun to watch as he focuses on objects...the sheer determination in those eyes as he grabs for toys keeps me mesmerized.   He "talks" to me throughout the day with his cooing and smiling...and he laughs out loud when I make goofy faces.  I have so much fun with him!!

We sing silly songs and dance around the living room.  We take walks around the neighborhood in his spiffy stroller/carseat combo.  I hold him close and kiss his head when he cries and tell him how much he is loved.

This little man has stolen my heart.

Happy Birthday, Bobby.  Mama loves you.

xoxo

Seriously

It is 6:06 AM and I've been working on this blog since 4:30 AM.  I LOVE LOVE LOVE Squarespace, but it is really taking me some time to understand how all this works.  Maybe I can use this for my new virtual assistant business?

Why am I up this early?  Hell if I know...I just can't seem to stay asleep this morning.

But I've had my one cup of coffee for the day and I'm slowly starting to wake up.   I also enjoyed my 2 slices of toast and peanut butter...don't know why that has become my breakfast of choice lately, but it fills me up and it is only a 4 point breakfast.  Since I've given birth on June 20, I'm down 49 pounds!!

I do wish I could have one more cup, but I don't want to aggravate my little man with the caffeine.   He is sleeping soundly in the bassinette and looks like a little angel.

So, since I'm absolutely all over the place with this entry and boring everyone to tears, I might as well make my focus list for today right here, right now.

1. Laundry
2. Vacuum
3. Shopping list for the weekend
4. Sweep the front porch and the garage
5. Get items ready for donation
6. 30 minutes of walking
7. Go from room to room and make a list of items I want to make it look polished, clean and organized

That's it for today. Any more and I might not do one damn thing. 

#7 popped into my head last night.  I wondered why I was feeling so out of control when I started any project and it finally dawned on me.  Every single room looks like it is bursting at the seams.  I haven't hung one picture on any wall since we moved in over a year ago. I have crap EVERYWHERE...stacks of magazines that I want to read but haven't yet, books I love but haven't read in years, mail, bills, cat toys, baby stuff...and there are a pair of shoes in almost every room - not put away, mind you.  Just kicked off and left there until someone decides they're needed.

Holy Moly...I wonder why I can't get anything done.

More later, but have a fabulous day!!

xoxo

HELLO?

Where have 18 days gone?  It has been that long since my last entry...and since I have sat my rather large caboose down to write...anything.

I've been reading some of my favorite blogs and they all seem to do it!!  In fact, Carmen over at Mom to the Screaming Masses updates her blog almost every day and SHE HAS SIX CHILDREN.  SIX!!!!  I have one and I'm totally discombobulated.

Good Lord.

I did make a decision today and I think it is a good one - set aside at least 30 minutes to update my blog and start getting serious about writing.

Seriously.  I've been yammering about writing for a very long time...it is time I do something about it.

Stay tuned.

xoxo