Happy Birthday!

I can't believe it...my little man was 3 months old yesterday!   Where has the time gone?

My body still bears the signs of pregnancy - some stretch marks on my belly, sore joints, fingers are still a bit swollen - but all of that is slowly dissipating.  I'm working on the extra weight - it is coming off steadily.

The more I think about it, the more I realize that I will deal with all of this gladly because of my son.  My body produced this amazing child who is now 25 inches and 13 1/2 pounds.

Yes, the boy hates Tummy Time like I hate exercise.  But both must be done! :)  He can hold his head up while lying on his tummy...and he even scoots around in a circle.  He is fun to watch as he focuses on objects...the sheer determination in those eyes as he grabs for toys keeps me mesmerized.   He "talks" to me throughout the day with his cooing and smiling...and he laughs out loud when I make goofy faces.  I have so much fun with him!!

We sing silly songs and dance around the living room.  We take walks around the neighborhood in his spiffy stroller/carseat combo.  I hold him close and kiss his head when he cries and tell him how much he is loved.

This little man has stolen my heart.

Happy Birthday, Bobby.  Mama loves you.

xoxo

Seriously

It is 6:06 AM and I've been working on this blog since 4:30 AM.  I LOVE LOVE LOVE Squarespace, but it is really taking me some time to understand how all this works.  Maybe I can use this for my new virtual assistant business?

Why am I up this early?  Hell if I know...I just can't seem to stay asleep this morning.

But I've had my one cup of coffee for the day and I'm slowly starting to wake up.   I also enjoyed my 2 slices of toast and peanut butter...don't know why that has become my breakfast of choice lately, but it fills me up and it is only a 4 point breakfast.  Since I've given birth on June 20, I'm down 49 pounds!!

I do wish I could have one more cup, but I don't want to aggravate my little man with the caffeine.   He is sleeping soundly in the bassinette and looks like a little angel.

So, since I'm absolutely all over the place with this entry and boring everyone to tears, I might as well make my focus list for today right here, right now.

1. Laundry
2. Vacuum
3. Shopping list for the weekend
4. Sweep the front porch and the garage
5. Get items ready for donation
6. 30 minutes of walking
7. Go from room to room and make a list of items I want to make it look polished, clean and organized

That's it for today. Any more and I might not do one damn thing. 

#7 popped into my head last night.  I wondered why I was feeling so out of control when I started any project and it finally dawned on me.  Every single room looks like it is bursting at the seams.  I haven't hung one picture on any wall since we moved in over a year ago. I have crap EVERYWHERE...stacks of magazines that I want to read but haven't yet, books I love but haven't read in years, mail, bills, cat toys, baby stuff...and there are a pair of shoes in almost every room - not put away, mind you.  Just kicked off and left there until someone decides they're needed.

Holy Moly...I wonder why I can't get anything done.

More later, but have a fabulous day!!

xoxo

HELLO?

Where have 18 days gone?  It has been that long since my last entry...and since I have sat my rather large caboose down to write...anything.

I've been reading some of my favorite blogs and they all seem to do it!!  In fact, Carmen over at Mom to the Screaming Masses updates her blog almost every day and SHE HAS SIX CHILDREN.  SIX!!!!  I have one and I'm totally discombobulated.

Good Lord.

I did make a decision today and I think it is a good one - set aside at least 30 minutes to update my blog and start getting serious about writing.

Seriously.  I've been yammering about writing for a very long time...it is time I do something about it.

Stay tuned.

xoxo

Queen of Procrastination, Part 2

Holy Mother of God, I can't even begin to tell you how disorganized I am.

But I shall try.

I know I "do things" throughout the day.  I must, because my baby is happy and healthy, bills are getting paid on time, clothes are being washed and everyone is fed.

But my desk is a swirling mess of paper.  Stuff to be filed, stuff to be shredded, stuff to be recycled and stuff that should just be thrown OUT.

I have a stack of paper to be shredded.  This stack is growing steadily in the corner of the desk like the man-eating plant named Audrey II in Little Shop of Horrors.  If I hear "FEEEED MEEEE", well....it is too late. My number is UP.

The computer that is on my desk is useless.  I need to take the important documents off the hard drive and just get rid of it.  Of course, I've been saying this for the past year and there it sits, mocking me.

I have to get serious with my planner.  I used to have a total love affair with my Franklin Covey day planner.  Franklin and I were inseparable.  I LOVED him.

Since I no longer work outside the home, the planner was just too much. I downgraded to a simple, artsy planner that I THOUGHT would be ok.  I'm not thrilled with it...my heart still belongs to Franklin.

Yet I need to make it work and just get over it.  It is a perfectly good planner - it just isn't my Franklin.

Tonight is the night to map out my day tomorrow.  I will make a list of every single thing that I think must be done in my life. That has to be my first step.  How can I get anything done if I'm not sure what it is I need to do?

From there, I can break it down even further.  I need to see what has to be done daily, and what can be done weekly, monthly, etc.

I know...I'll keep track of it on my blog.!  This way, I can see exactly what I've done daily as I spruce up the site...and of course just ramble on about my usual crap.

I think I've stumbled onto something...hmmm.

We'll see...wish me luck!

xoxo

Big Momma's House

Well, this big momma is TIRED of being big.

True, I've been a big girl all my life. By the time I was 13, I was 5'10" and over 180 pounds...not fun.   I developed an eating disorder when I was 16 - Bulimia -  and managed to get to 149 pounds in the most reckless and unhealthy way possible.  I dieted like a fiend and "got rid" of dinner.   I wasn't taking a multi-vitamin, so my health suffered.  I am still paying the price - I have advanced gum disease, I've lost the enamel on my front teeth and my stomach is a mess.

I stayed at 149 pounds for probably all of a day.  Once I graduated high school and began working, the weight slowly crept up until I hovered at 170.  Seems high, huh?  Well, like I said, I'm a big girl...there is nothing petite about me.

I think I look pretty good at that weight.

So, my mission - and I choose to accept it - is to get my fat ass down to 170 pounds.   Yes, I had a baby 2 months ago - I need to be kind to my body.  That means that I won't overdo it because my body is still recovering. 

I DID manage to lose 34 lbs so far, so I am pleased with myself for that.  But since  I gained 80 pounds during my pregnancy and my little man only weighed 8 pounds 14 ounces, I have a LONG way to go.

But I can do it.

I have joined Weight Watchers and will start actually writing down what I eat, when I eat it, how and when I exercise...and I will most likely be jotting down my thoughts and feelings during this ordeal program.

I will keep you updated!!  Keep your fingers crossed and send all your happy thoughts my way!

xoxo